♥ 11:38 PM

Woke up at 5.10a.m this morning to revise back what I have memorize for history of art and design I.
Then went to university to sit for the exam.
The whole course is separated into 3 classes.
So, one class contains about 16 people.
It was so, so QUIET inside.
You could heard tiny little sounds.
You could even heard the clock ticking ever so clearly.
Scary...
It was okay, i think.
I still can remember some stuff.
After exam, went to Sunway Pyramid to watch movie.
Haha. Not yet finish exam, but already start enjoying.
We were watching X-Men Origins: Wolverine.
It was quite good, not what I expected.
But I never see the comic or the cartoon, so I don't know.
But it is the first movie that I didn't doze off in the middle of the movie. LOL.
I don't know whether it is the air-cond or my eyes are tired, but everytime I watch movie at the cinema, I surely will doze off awhile.
Haha.

♥ 8:18 PM

♥ 6:47 PM

Today is the day!
Pendidikan Moral final exam.
It is just a bunch of confusing questions.
50 questions of multiple choices.
And 2 essay questions.
I just wrote whatever that are making sense.
I finished at 11a.m.
The exam duration is 2 and a half hours.
So I just sat there for half hour.
Hmm..don't know.
Been feeling down lately.
Next paper.. history of art.
3 days to study.

♥ 2:31 PM

My grandpa is in the hospital right now.
Heartbeats dropping, blood pressure becomes very low.
Sigh.

♥ 1:33 PM

Recently there has been a lot of family stuff/drama going on.
And I feel like I can't breathe anymore.
Don't forget the final exam is coming in two days.
I just wish I could concentrate and study for the coming exam.
But it is Pendidikan Moral by the way, in Bahasa Malaysia.
Couldn't help myself from falling asleep by reading all the notes.
Anyway, seems like my grandpa is not doing well at all.
(There's behind-the-scene story.. but i will tell it another time)
He has some sort of last stage of lymph cancer.
Well, his tumor has started to spread around on his arms, his legs...
He has become weak, he could hardly walk anymore.
I don't know how much longer he can stand it.

Now, they are going to move him back to his old house(kampung) so he can rest peacefully there.
My aunt is going to take care of him along with her daughter(my cousin) who is going back tomorrow to Miri.(she works for my mother here.)
And now my mum will works alone in her saloon which makes me very worry about her.
Her health is not that good by the way.
So after every exam, I am going back home to accompany her.
I'm not sure if I can concentrate study back at home, but I have no other choice.

I have plan to go to Tioman with my friends after finish the exam but now I am not sure whether I can go or not.
Because who knows what will happen in this two weeks.
Shit.
I am scared.
And stress.

♥ 11:18 PM

So this is it.
Today is the last class for this sem.
Finally after 14 weeks of madness, it is over.
Should I feel relief?
Or should I be worry?
Exam is coming soon.
Firstly, Pendidikan Moral final exam on next Saturday.
Hope I can get good result this semester.

I never thought that what I dream at night will become reality.
I always thought that dream is opposite of real life.
Ahhhh...my mistake.

Been feeling down lately.
Other than dealing with school stuff, social stuff, going back home has become another problem for me.
People are saying home sweet home, but I cannot agree with that anymore.
Going back home should be a good thing.
But I face even more problems at home.
Shit.
Actually I can go home today but I just don't feel like going back.
I am only human.
It is hard to smile when you just feel like crying.
But I still smile.
Sometimes I don't feel like growing up.
But then as a kid, I was forced to being more mature than any other kids.
So I am a bit more serious than other people because that is the way I am brought up.
I wish I come from a family that is full of love and affection so that I can be happy-go-lucky all the time.
But that is not who I am.
I guess I am weird.
Thanks dad, and the women who steals my dad.
Who makes me who am I today.

♥ 9:41 PM

♥ 6:25 AM

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...
Feeling so frustrated.
Yesterday went to print the last assignment for this sem, portfolio design for DTPII.
I don't know why but there are a lot of problems and mistakes.
First of all, I forget to create outline for one text.
After they print it, then only I realized that.
There goes my RM2.
So I did it straight away using their computer and that stupid worker kept on saying if her boss sees this, he will asks me to charge you extra more and those stupid shit.
Ok, it's okay if you just said that once.
But she just kept on repeating about how they will charge me more for service charge.
Damn.
Later, they couldn't print my file in adobe indesign.
I also don't know what happened.
They asked me back why is that.
How the hell I know?
Stupid.
So, they have to drag my file to adobe illustrator to print one by one.
But some of the artwork inside have become jagged and all that.
Some I forget to leave space for binding.
Feeling so, so disappointed with myself.
Total cost: RM43. 15

♥ 11:05 AM

Dreams...
Do you dream all the time?
I do.
Not just daydreaming but when I am sleeping too.
I don't know when it started.
But everytime I go to sleep, from the moment I close my eyes till I wake up the next morning, it will be filled with dreams.
Just dreams...people, like in real life.
Sometimes I can't even remember whether it is a dream or it is the reality.
I guess it all started when my father passed away.
So since I was 16 years old until now, I have been dreaming non-stop.
I never have those kind of blank and empty dream anymore.
My mum has this condition too.
It started after she divorced with my dad.
I wonder what's wrong with us.
We always feel tired and not getting enough sleep.
Haha.
That's why I always need to sleep early because I never get enough sleep with all the dreams I get.
Weird, huh?
Yeah.

♥ 3:36 PM

♥ 10:35 PM

♥ 10:06 PM

On last Saturday, Miss Liong, our history of art lecturer brought us to go for a class trip to KL Design Week at CapSquare. We went by UTAR bus. LOL.

UTAR bus

Siew Yin. Rachel.

Yeu Yun. Me.

Chun Seong. Valerie

Hey, there's Miss Liong!

People queuing for free gift!

Below are the artworks displayed there.

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Group photo time...

Eric. Siew Yin. Me. Rachel. Valerie. Yeu Yun.

Me. Valerie.

Me. Yeu Yun. Valerie.

Me. Rachel.

Yeu Yun. Me. Rachel. Valerie.

Baby Lee...

Me. Siew Yin. Valerie. Rachel. Yeu Yun.

Kenny. Thomas. Chun Seong. Eric. Kok Liang

♥ 8:03 AM